March 2011
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Our Perfect Wedding
We’ve settled on pretty much every detail and created a Spreadsheet to keep our wedding AND our honeymoon at about $4,000. The venue is his Grandparent’s barn, so that’s free. Now that I’ve seen how much of a yard they have though, we may do it in the yard if it’s nice outside. It’s just going to be him, me, his mom, his step-dad, his grandma, uncle,...
January 2011
2 posts
Engaged, but I want a ring. It doesn’t feel real unless it’s on Facebook.
I want this one. How to hint?
Covergirl 50th Anniversary
Visit the COVERGIRL Facebook page and go to the MyCOVERGIRL tab to register for the 50th anniversary celebration. Add your photo to get the fun started with a cool interactive app that will let your friends know why you’re a COVERGIRL!
You’ll have the opportunity to win a chance to dance on the Ellen show as well as a chance to receive samples. How fun!
Want to find out about cool...
November 2010
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Religion
My boyfriend has gone off the deep end.
October 2010
1 post
Fail
I’d like for once to be able to finish an educational goal without starting another. I stopped my AA because I got accepted to USF. Stopped going there because I flunked out because I was more interested in a boy. Boy became a turd. Moved home. Quit nursing school because it wasn’t for me even though I was doing well on paper. I don’t know what it’s going to take to get me...
September 2010
2 posts
Clinical Days 1-2
Day 1- Day 1 was really hard. I got put on A wing with Mindy. A wing is a rehab wing, but most of my patients didn’t seem too able to do anything by themselves. I didn’t know where jack squat was and meeting new patients was hard. I found even communicating with a patient to be difficult. I had a feed, my FIRST feed, Mr. D, and he didn’t want to eat for me AT ALL. He was a...
I’m a grand prize winner of life, and a trip to Indianapolis.
Marry me.
August 2010
4 posts
As excited and grateful as I am to be in this nursing program, I feel like such a loner. Everyone else socializes and I feel cast out. So I text boyfriend during class to tell him how much I hate it and wish he were with me. Because if he were, I’d be a lot more stress free. I went and saw him for a hug and a kiss after class, but stayed for almost 2 hours. Time goes by so fast when...
Vows
Woke up today and this idea of wedding vows was stuck in my head. So I wrote them down and they’re probably the most beautiful thing I’ve ever written and I’m not even engaged.
I love how boyfriend wants me to meet his grandma and grandpa.
I love when we are laying together in my car, windows down, Florida humidity up, and he just talks. I love learning about him. I love how he...
It is easy to forget to blog when everything is perfect again.
July 2010
9 posts
Hot
F telling me he thinks I’m hot tops the cake of life for me. He also told me he’d bang the crap out of me. I think that’s what he said anyway, I was drunk and it was loud.
The Breakup
The breakup was unexpected and I feel blind. I did actually vomit. It was probably the most honest breakup I’ve ever had. He really told me why and I’m left feeling like I have no questions, but I’m still heartbroken. I do wonder how just hours ago we were planning a weekend-vacation, and now we’re through. I do wonder if there’s another girl, but in my heart I know...
Beer, Sweet Kisses And Grape Drank
Jon and I went away for the weekend. I had won a night at the Red Roof Inn from a sweepstake so we used that Saturday night and went to the zoo Sunday with my friend Brandi and her boyfriend. The hotel was really much nicer than I thought it was going to be. We were *going* to go to Westshore pizza to get a pizza with a coupon I had for a free pizza, but we didn’t want to leave the room :)...
Life Can Be
Life can be so simple and for once I feel like the brightest star.
I
like my new boyfriend. A lot.
“I am thinking it’s a sign that the freckles
In our eyes are mirror images...”
Grandfather
I wish you supported me emotionally. I wish you didn’t verbally harass me with no thought of my self esteem. I wish you and I could really talk.
Karaoke
Last night I went out to karaoke with Megan. It was a great night. We ended up finding a group with one or two people we knew, and we hung out with them for the whole night. So for once it wasn’t lame and we knew people. We’re just little social butterflies :) There was a cute guy with a crazy hat and Megan told him I thought he was cute. Woops.
And then I went to Buttface...
June 2010
13 posts
We Won!
Went to the game last night with T and his friend Gibby. We won :) T and I sat really close and he met some sports reporter guy. His friend had better seats and sat closer but whatever. Because we got ten strikeouts during the game, we now get free pizza courtesy of Kanes :)
We went to Outback for lunch and he seems like he’s wanting to get back together. I do love him and all, but I need...
New job
I got the job at the hotel. I hope I’ll like it there.
Found out they’ve pushed back the acceptance letters to the nursing program until mid-July. I’ve been sitting here waiting because they said end of June. I don’t understand why it takes a month and a half to pick 24 spots. Annoyed.
I’ve been working a lot on ChaCha this past week. Made $200 sitting on my butt....
Alone
Maybe I should just be alone. T has started adding skanky ugly fat girls on Facebook, which I guess is his way of moving on. And that’s fine. Let him take advantage of some other dumb girl. He’ll never have the satisfaction of settling down. I guess my problem is I’m such a monogamous bitch. I should have known, from the start, that he was coming on too strong.
And Mr. Crush...
Oh wow.
I have a crush.
And it isn’t T.
Bourbon Street tonight was fun. Then I went and did some illegal activities. :) And Krystal the psycho threw rocks at my car. WORTH IT though. I don’t even want her husband. Messing with her is too fun. I know that makes me a bad person and I don’t normally thrive on drama, but when it comes to her I LOVE knowing that I can make her that mad just...
Be away.
I don’t like how T can just be away and think only about his ‘stress’. Shouldn’t he want somebody to help? We were fine until we weren’t and in my mind, we can just start over. But somethings fucked in his head and he can’t get past this whole needing power thing. Maybe that’s it. He can’t control everything else in his life right now so I’m an...
Little Life
I just held a little bitty baby in my arms.
I want one.
“Let’s get this straight. I have genital warts. Not herpes. It’s...”
– Me to Krystal, the psycho.
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Wondering
I wonder if it’ll be okay, eventually.
I mean, I did think it would all be okay with R last year. Even when he got himself locked up, I wanted to make it work. And he liked that I was there for him. Sometimes I wonder if I should write back to him. I told his sister to tell him Happy Birthday in March, so she did, and he wrote me back. It’s been 3 months and I haven’t replied to...
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Still Nothing
T is still ‘thinking’. He says he’s under stress. His best friend just had a baby..last night. We had plans to hang out but instead of being happy for him when he cancelled (yay, baby!) I was upset. I got really mad. The anger only lasted a little while and then I decided to do something productive. Hence the baby star shaped blanket I’m making. It was hard. I...
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Shrek 3D
Yesterday when I got home from work, I whipped together this chocolate chip cookie cake. The M&M’s are strawberry and peanut butter flavored. Mmm! I gave it to T. Then we went to see Shrek 3D. The movie was alright. Not my favorite Shrek movie but at least the glasses didn’t give me a headache like they usually do. On the way back to his house, we had a great conversation...
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Nobody Knows
I like that I can just be here and nobody knows. I texted T today. I asked him if he wants to go see a movie Friday or Saturday but he replied that he doesn’t have the money to go to a movie, so I replied “Redbox”. No reply from him, but I know he’s working on some writing for his e-fed tonight. I need to have faith that things will work out how I want them to. It is...
May 2010
2 posts
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Time
T and I broke up on Wednesday. We did end up going to the game on Friday, but he claims he has no idea what he wants. How someone can go from loving you, to being unsure, I don’t know. We did get into a couple arguments, but that wasn’t enough to make me stop caring. They were stupid arguments caused by being tired, stressed and cranky. I love T. I’m pretty much set on...
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I passed.
Needless to say, (because I was SO confident beforehand, right?) I passed the driving test on April 22. The man driving with me was a retired state trooper and he just whistled and hummed the entire way, without making a single note. I blew the fuck out of that mountain. But how can I feel like I’m doing anything at all with my life? I go to work, go to boyfriend’s house, do...
April 2010
1 post
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Learning to Drive at Advanced Age
I was just like everybody else. I got my permit at 15. I even passed my first try while my friends failed. Then life happened, anxiety built up, one bad experience and six years passed. I see sixteen year olds gleefully getting their first cars and it pisses me off. I did this to myself. I can blame everyone else but I didn’t take the incentive to drive. And now I am. Now that...